My personality profile

http://www.mypersonality.info/personality-types/istj/

Apparently I am a ISTJ. Seems to fit me in the most part. Introverted yup, sensitive I guess, thinking oh definitely, judging - dh would agree. I definitely like to plan, am loyal, like fairness, don’t like unexpected change, analyse a lot and learn within a structured environment best. Wish I could create structure though! This new baby has thrown me for a loop despite him being a lovely little settled fellow. I just need to get on with the work and stop playing around.

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CV

The birth story

Posted on a favourite parenting forum:

Sunday 29 June 2008

Yesterday (Saturday) my in-laws came over for a quick social visit with my mum who has been here for the last week. They irritate her and me so we weren’t very social at all. lol

Just as they left about 1/4 to 5 I had a strong contraction. I bustled around doing a few minor things, organised my mum into doing dinner for the kids and managed to get one of my other children through the bath while I was in the shower. Contractions started at 8 minutes apart and over the next hour went down to 3 minutes apart when we called the hospital who told dh to not hesitate in coming in.

I was getting concerned the baby would arrive in our front garden with the next contraction, and I told him he was not going to be born in the car either with the next contraction on the way to the hospital. Dh went through a red light to get to the hospital door as that contraction finished. I hot footed it straight out of the van past emergency to the birthing suites where the midwives were literally rushing out to meet me. lol They had read my file.

I had a really nice young midwife who didn’t leave my side. So glad because it was only about 4 contractions on the bed and bub was born. He broke his waters with the second contraction and then had the third (head out) and fourth (the rest of him out) close together. I am really not doing this again. That was an intense labour of 1 hour and 20 minutes. I am just about totally scared out of having anymore. I don’t like how they go so fast.

He is 8lb 3oz and 49cm (19.25 inch). Not small for me! Boy, his hips felt like another head.

Dh said they had to unloop his cord from his neck but otherwise we have had no difficulties. I only stayed until lunch time to get to see all the people necessary on a Sunday. Glad to be home so I can sleep properly tonight.

Oh, and just in case you are wondering, my others were a six hour labour with very fast progression towards the end, my second was born in an ambulance in rush hour traffic in Brisbane with the same fast progression and 2 hours, then my third did manage to make it into a hospital but was born within minutes of the midwife leaving the room after a quick check up with a labour of 2h15m and my dh had to catch him, buzz the midwives and get out of the way quick as they caught bub3 shooting out. Nope, no more! Four boys is a nice group of little men.

Best wishes,
CV

A new baby

My littlest one arrived at 6-07pm on Saturday 28 June just in time to have one day with his grandma before she left. I bet she would have liked to have spent more time with him but she had to get back to work. Very sad really, that after all these years of working (about 22 years) that mum has to still continue working until she can officially retire in 3 years time. Just dad’s pension wouldn’t be enough to live on.

This little guy is being very easy to deal with, or is it the maturity and experience of being a fourth time mum?!

He sleeps a lot and very easily. We have had 2 nights of the screaming at bed time but baths or homeopathic remedies have pulled them up short. Dh wonders how I have the patience, I guess after 2 you just learn to relax and go with the flow. Sure I get tired and brain dead but I also remember that this isn’t personal and it doesn’t last long.

The big brothers seem to be settling well although we really need to get back into school. They have had way too much TV and Xbox this last 2 weeks. I will be glad when dh goes back to college so I can get on with it.

Best wishes,
CV

Letting go of past dreams

I had one of those very vivid late pregnancy dreams and from a regular “character” learnt something. At some stage in our lives we have to decide whether holding onto the dreams of our youth is actually holding us back or inspiring us to move forward.

I have had a certain set of dreams for a long time that I have linked to this character and last night I realised that those dreams don’t care about me, that there isn’t a connection anymore except a painful reminder of how differently my adult life has turned out to be from those dreams. Holding onto those dreams is no longer inspiring for my future.

In fact holding onto them makes me bitter in my present life and that emotion can only hold me back from achieving different dreams in my present and future that may have just as much value and importance if I would let go of the bitterness associated with the past unachieved dreams.

I am feeling a lot lighter this morning. I feel inspired to go looking for new dreams, to define the whispers of other dreams I have had so that I can move forward into my future with hope of new goals.

Best wishes,
CV

How to put pictures in my posts

I loved Labyrinth as a teen and still love it.

Best wishes,
CV